So i woke up this morning and everything was GREAT! For some reason i was wide awake and knew it would be a great day, and for the most part, it was. 

You know..there's this friend i have.  Known her for a couple of years thanks to Church. This friend is going away soon..and it really really makes me sad. She always has the right advice for me, helps me through everything, and even though i've really messed up for some stuff..didn't judge me for it and now that i'm done with that stage..is still my friend.  If only more people were like her.  She's so sweet..in a "i'm not all mushy" type way. :)  I love her and i really don't know what the heck im going to do when she's gone.  I guess i can take her place in complaining at youth bc..well..she's done good at passing down that trait to me lol. I was just thinking about it tonight..ahh..its gonna be weird. 

Everything else has been going pretty well. Just busy with school, work, and church.   I'm ready for it to slow down..but i don't see that happening till school gets out..then still..this summer is going to be awfully busy also..but great times ahead! I think that's all i need to say..

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So it's been a while.  Things are going alright.  Other than..

well..you know how someone hurts you..really bad?? Example: they tell you they love you. Which is something they never tell ANYONE. So you have them fall in love with you..then 2 days later ..they can't talk to you anymore. No explaination..they just don't want you anymore.

Yeah..then a month later.they tell you that you can be friends again.  So..my question being..do i go back to where we left off..or just not.  I'm scared to go back because i've lost trust.  It's funny how i have to give a devotional at church on TRUST! wow..i just thought of that.  It's something i struggle with. Especially when i've been hurt so many times.  I was doing alright without him. I really was. I guess all i can do is pray. 

I hope everyone is doing alright :)

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Em

good/bad

Hey!! So this weekend has been one really good, yet bad one. 

Warmth in Winter was really good!! Got to see Jenessa, Christine, and Micahel again! Good stuff. I miss Jenessa and Christine SOO much! Michael too but i see him more than them.  Anyhow..i got some good stuff out of this weekend. It really made me reevaluate my life and the way it was going.  I'm SO sick of the way certain people make me feel.  I have let a few of them get the best of me in the past and that is DEFINATELY changing.  I can't let the stuff they say to me bother me as much as i let it.  As mean as this sounds..they aren't worth getting upset and crying over. I'm sorry..but i really don't think im a spoiled, stuck up brat. I'm sure there are times that i HAVE been stuck up but does everyone not have those days?? Chances are..everyone has.  I'm sorry if i've been that way to anyone lately.  It wasn't intentional.   . It just makes me really sad that that's the way someone perceives me. 

I HATE giving up people.  Yeah..sometimes its easier for people  if you just don't talk or anything. For me..its really hard and it hurts.  I HATE when people are mad at me and think wrongly about me.  Slowly i'm gaining the attitude that is more or less ..if you don't like me..you don't like me. I'm not going to sit there and beg for someone to be my friend.  I don't like judging either.  Yeah..i'm guilty of it too. *in no way of saying all this am i trying to say im perfect..by any means* but im working on it.  I have this friend..atleast i think we are friends..but lately..its like we do nothing but argue. I'm SO sick of it. I've tried talkin to them about it..but its like we go in circles with each discussion we have. I care about them A LOT.  They mean SOO much to me and i hate how it's come down to this. I mean..i find myself crying and upset more times than not now over them.  I've tried..really hard. Is it possible some people just aren't meant to be friends?? I thought everyone could eventually work things out..but this is just getting..stupid.  Part of me just wants to give it up.  I've prayed and prayed about it. I'm not sure what else to do now but to stop it all.  It's going to hurt bad but "everything ends badly..otherwise things wouldn't end". 

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Em
*Sorry it was so long*

You know..i don't really know what to say on here anymore.  Lets see..

School's almost out.. thank God. 

Went to Opry Mills yesterday with my family and Ashtin.  There are some..interesting, not to mention rude, people in Nashville.  Overall it was really fun though.  Today i just went to church. Saw Laurie for the first time in a while. I can't wait till Tuesday!!! That's gonna rock.  Anyways..i think that's all that i have to say..

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Emily

So..you know when things start to go bad..like everything..all at once. Good grief. I hate times like that. I know in the end it will be ok and all that..but for now it just sucks.  Not to mention..i broke Ashtins phone..She makes everything awkward and i ruin everything..geez..lol. jk.

Pretty good weekend.  Friday went to OCharlies then to babysit/study for ACT.  Then got home at 1:30.  Then Sat. i went and got Ashtin..took the ACT..did horrible..then went to get Taylor and drop her off at my house..went to Subway.  After that we hung out at my house and watched "Radio" haha..sad movie.  Then went to the play at school.  Then back to Subway to see Tyler..then we went to Kroger bc Chris got off at 10..and we wanted to see him..so yeah..then pizza hut..then to her house.  Today..went to church..back to church at 5..and now home.

So yeah..leave me comments

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